restlessness

I think our dog, Mia, feels the same way I do; indecisive and restless. She keeps going in and out of the house with no real desire for either. My reason right now is that I'm currently jobless. Of course there are a myriad of jobs out there that I could probably obtain. All being in retail, restaurant or being a barista. I don't mind those jobs. I really don't. Especially when I know that they're temporary. I'm applying for grad school in the spring so I have bigger dreams ahead. My reason for holding off applying to these jobs is because I applied to an actual, big girl, full-time, 9-5 type job and I'm still waiting to hear from them. So I don't want to get into anything, go through training, yada yada to then have to quit. That's no good for them or me really. I'm trying to remain optimistic, hopeful and patient. After two weeks of waiting it gets quite difficult. The support from my boyfriend has been amazing. He listens to me bitch, moan and worry quite patiently. I've been working on some things to put on my etsy and am planning on having it up tonight. Please check it our and share with your family and friends.


Also, I recently wrote about the 21-day challenge I've been doing. The first week was all about healing the past. Learning techniques to forgive people and situations was taught. It set the foundation to go forth to heal and learn to love yourself and the world. I've always thought myself a positive and optimistic person but throughout this process I'm learning that I hold some negativities and resentments. I've dealt with some major setbacks. The thing is that I am my toughest critic and quite hard on myself. I also have a tendency to compare where I am in life with people who are where I want to be. You never know the struggles other people have faced and a lot are probably much worse than struggles I've seen. One will never know.

I hope that you have something(s) in your life to help you cope with stress and that they are healthy ways. Meditation, yoga, exercising and laughing are some of my favorite ways. What are yours?

Much love,
-S